Kate Ferdinand has shared an adorable note from her stepchildren who have been attempting to console her as she navigates being a new mum in lockdown.
The first-time mum, who shared the first snap of son Cree in December, took to Instagram to share the note and also wrote a lengthy post about how she’s been feeling.
The note read: “Pls stop crying I love you,” alongside a love heart drawing. [sic]
Kate, 29, wrote: “Just when I thought the screaming baby would drown out the sound of my tears, I get this through the door. Asi f I wasn’t emotional enough.
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“To new mums, mums, step mums… and anyone who is struggling in lockdown, I feel you! Sometimes we just need to sneak in our room and have a little cry… even then, because of lockdown, we may have lots of little ears listening in.
The former TOWIE star went on to reveal that being a new mum and living in lockdown have contributed to her having an emotional breakdown.
“A mix of the new baby, lockdown, kids at home and lack of sleep have well and truly got to me. I feel like I’m a robot going through the same routine daily, feed baby, wind baby, wait for him to wake up and repeat.
“Don’t get me wrong I am blessed to live the life I do; a husband, four beautiful kids, two dogs [one that’s still protesting because of the baby]…
“Some moments I’m feeling amazing and full of love, but I’m too often left feeling low, like I can’t escape. I’m not sure if this is the after effects of a emergency c section, or the stress of another lockdown – maybe it’s even a mix of both,” Kate debated.
“I feel so lucky to have just welcomed a beautiful baby boy into the world, some people never get to experience this amazing feeling, but my emotions and anxiety are at an all time high … all my coping mechanisms I’ve learnt over the years to keep my anxiety at bay I can’t utilise.
“A workout, a long walk, some alone time. Everything passes, and I know too this soon shall pass, I’m just in it right now,” she candidly admitted.
The blonde beauty, who previously said she was feeling overwhelmed, continued: “This is all new to me as I never normally talk openly with how I’m feeling on here in the present, I always open up when I’m feeling better or it leaves me feeling really vulnerable….
“But your messages made me feel so much better last time and not alone. Now I feel I have a duty to show you the real not so perfect me…
“Here I am sharing how I’m feeling for anyone else feeling the same, I hope how I’m feeling can give you some comfort that you are also not alone. Lots of love,” Kate concluded.